Sexuality during a male to Female transition
While hiding myself all those years, I’ve kept sexuality in a metaphorical box. I was helped in this by not having a strong desire to have sex with a penis. I wonder how common this is given the popularity of male chastity. Every time I saw a guy had drawn a penis on something, my response was eww, why – put it away, I have just never understood men being proud of their penis.
I have long dreamt of being physically female and having a boyfriend and wondered how that would feel to have him make love to me, it’s been the impossible dream. In more recent years I have learned about other options that could be fun that were curious omissions from my Catholic Boys school sex ed. Classes.
There is no doubt that transitioning has changed this, I have not only been going through a revolution in who I am, but also how I relate to people. The impossible dream is a little less impossible. At the moment, I’m still attracted to both Women and Men, but I’m shy and a bit mindful that hormones can change that balance.
This is an amazingly brave to be open about how you feel!! Go at your own pace. No one should rush into anything they’re not comfortable with in the bedroom. Just work on being the real you first. You’ve got this!